Why?

Why did you think it would be okay to conceive me with no father?
I was so wanted.
But I cannot know my family.
I should be grateful to be alive.
But I will always have a big, missing hole.
I was loved by my parents.
But why did they lie to me? Why are they so ashamed of how I came to be?
I should be thankful I’m alive.
But I’m so hurt. You have lost me.